THOU SHALT NOT LOSE THYSELF

Who are you?

My name is……(I got interrupted)

No, I know your name. I mean who are you? He asked me.

Now that’s a difficult one, I said.

I thought I knew who I was. I thought I stood for something, my fears both reasonable and unreasonable, I did know them all. My strengths as well as those damn weaknesses that remind me I’m human and not a perfectly built robot, my daily life reminds me of it all. At least they did months ago, or perhaps years ago. I have lost track of time. I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE 😪.

It’s a big world with so much responsibilities, and you may get lost putting pressure on ourselves just to be accepted by others. We rely on our relationship to have a sense of worth and once that relationship comes crushing down we feel worthless.
When God said He created man in His own image and likeness, I believe that’s one of His greatest gifts to us. We all have value regardless of gender, class, disability, race and what have you.

Once upon a time, there lived a young man, handsome (can’t take that from him). One special thing about him was his extraordinary confidence. He thought he had seen it all and had it all until he met this young beautiful lady and started a relationship with her. Love is a beautiful thing. We all expect a better and improved version of ourselves, (iPhone cannot leave us behind). At least your better half should bring out the best in you.

Unfortunately for this young man, he started feeling less human as compared to his girlfriend. This is a girl who hardly knows her left from right and yet in her man’s eyes she was the perfect being whose achievements he was racing to match up to.
…………………………………….

Today he says

“I thought I knew who I was. I thought I stood for something, my fears both reasonable and unreasonable, I did know them all. My strengths as well as those damn weaknesses that remind me I’m human and not a perfectly built robot, my daily life reminds me of it all. At least they did months ago, or perhaps years ago. I have lost track of time. I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE 😪.”

There was a time I was shy to look at my reflection in the mirror. Not just physically but morally. I’d ask myself, why continue this line of work when deep down you know you are losing yourself? I was uncomfortable in my own skin, feeling inferior to others meanwhile years ago I knew I was born to win, born to stand out, born to fly as high as I wanted. What’s more annoying was looking up to others for acceptance because I couldn’t even accept myself. I needed others approval for everything and anything. By doing that, I was giving taking away my powers and giving it to others. I forgot the meaning of happiness.

It can happen to anyone. Some people suffer identity crisis due to relationships, others jobs which make them sell their morals for coins, being faced with a health condition, divorce, thirst for vengeance, death of a loved one etc.

When you see the signs, promise yourself, no matter how far I go, no matter how long it takes, I must find my self.I must remember the qualities that define and make me feel excited as a person, my beliefs, what interests me and what I’m passionate about.

What are we really after? What do we want to become? What if we just to trying to become so much and un-become the things that you are not? Please, thou shalt not lose thyself.

Lots of love😍
PS: All images from Google.

Comments

  1. Tekwor

    Oh what a beautiful post. Who are you? It’s the question uh, and everybody will likely think a lot before answering that. My answer is ‘I am’. That’s how we embrace ourselves for all of it, losing it and all. We just are, whatever that is in a moment. It’s all part of it. Once it came out from you, it’s in you. A part, not the whole, but a part nonetheless. Like God, We are.
    I pray all who feel lost find themselves.❤️✌🏾

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